Remember all those summer memories i dreamed of creating? That I wrote about in true poetic fashion, scribbled rough drafts on coffee shop napkins and all?
Yeah, about that…
I dropped calculus, went to the pool three minutes before closing time (so much for nightly swim), forgot about the water fight because water wastage duh!!! (not because i don’t have friends!!!), and made easy mac in less than two minutes. Also, no one wanted to make a summer horror film with me because I get too into it. Or because they hate me (or maybe I never asked them about it because I was too lazy). I was also too cheap to get a gym membership, and every stranger I almost started a conversation with looked at me like they were surprised I knew english.
Besides that, summer has been pretty fruitful.
My graduation party (an event I had been looking forward to forever), a family cruise, the ravishing sight of the Bahamas, a pop up internship, a book club meeting, a newfound obsession with italian coffee makers, an introduction to Gossip Girl (and binge watching, for that matter), the realization that I will never truly need anyone but myself (and maybe a vintage SRK poster), and getting $35 shoes for $10 at ALDO...I’d call it a pretty productive summer.
I know that in life, we’re forced to summarize everything into lists. Lists are helpful, condensed, and easy to follow. They make our goals more prominent, and allowed us to keep track in life. To do lists, Bucket Lists, Summer To Do Lists, I’ve made, seen, and failed to complete all.
Now, I’m not telling you to abandon lists all together or give up on your hopes and dreams. I’m telling you to be optimistic about your future and be aware of yourself. That, just because you didn’t complete everything on your list doesn’t mean everything else is a waste of time. You didn’t make the private yacht virgin Shirley Temple fantasy a reality this summer, but you had a can of Tazo’s savory peach green tea on the lawn of your community college. You didn’t take a roadtrip to New Mexico, but you finished four seasons of The Office.
Instead of specific actions/deeds in the summer, prescribe yourself emotions. Tell yourself to feel fulfilled instead of scribbling that you MUST do something. When you prescribe yourself emotions instead of actions, you broaden your horizons. There are many ways to feel “euphoric”, and only one way to “adopt a cat.”
So be flexible, and open your mind to new things (this advice to myself before anyone else). Avoid getting stuck on the specific little details, and instead, focus on the bigger picture. There is so much beauty in the world, if only you forced yourself to see it.